The late Steve Carmichael-Timson (d.2008) left Scientology sometime in 1999, in an internet post he gives credit to Stacy Brooks and “Ishmael,” for helping him shed the chains of Scientology. Why did he leave? Curiosity, among other things. He wanted to know just what the “real” L. Ron Hubbard was like so he asked somebody who knew him; big mistake.
When I got back to the States, I decided to stay with my God-Mother, June Cline. June used to work with LRH, and she had left Scientology by this time. It was perfect. One morning we went out for breakfast.
These questions of LRH were bothering me, so I asked: “What was Ron like?”
“Oh, you don’t want to ask me.”
“No, I do. I want to know what this man is like.”
“If you want to get your answer, you should ask someone in the church.”
Actually, I don’t remember the conversation, but what I do remember, is that it took a long time to get her to answer my question. Finally, she said, “I thought he was a jerk. He knew what he wanted, and he did what ever it took to get it, at any expense. He had no care for the people, he just wanted to get what he wanted. I didn’t like him very much.”
That must of hit you really hard to hear that after being brought up to believe something else.
By Scientology terms, I began to think of myself in the condition of “Doubt.”
For conditions, that’s pretty low, and nobody really likes to be there. I think the toughest part of being in this condition, was telling my Scientology friends, my only friends. By saying I’m in doubt with Scientology, is like saying, I’m in doubt with having you as a friend. My friends didn’t take it so well. One of my best friends, Michael Coleman, wrote me a letter of disconnection, as I was no longer a safe person to talk to.
My father told me that he didn’t know if he and I should carry the father/son relationship we had. He chose the Church, at this time, over me. My friend Chris Currier called me up, and wanted me to say where I stood with Scientology. He said he wanted to hear it from the “horse’s mouth.”
Basically, I told him that I was on my way out of the church. He said, that he was disappointed to hear it, and said he was disconnecting from me. With some slight rage inside me, I told him that Scientology would never “Clear the planet.” When he asked why, I said “because there would always be someone like me around.” He called me an asshole, and that was the last we spoke.
I wonder if this is the reason people are reluctant to leave. They leave all their friends behind and if the only friends they have are from the Co$ then the feeling of loneliness and isolation must be terrible.
My father told me that he didn’t know if he and I should carry the father/son relationship we had. He chose the Church, at this time, over me.
To read the rest of that post go here: http://www.skeptictank.org/hs/lcos4.htm
To see some pictures Steve took at protests go here: http://www.xenu-directory.net/mirrors/www.whyaretheydead.net/misc/cambabes/index.html
Memorial page to Steve with a picture of him: http://www.friendsandrelations.com/html/detail.php/id/365/relations/steve_carmichael-timson.html