Ex-Scientologist Story #412, “There is life after Scientology.”

ex-files-scientology21

Ididntcomeback:
Out for 15 years and still alive!

Hi, my name is Skip Yarian. I was somewhat well-known to people in the East U.S. and LA.
I did my first Scn course in 1975, at the Tampa, FL mission. I later joined staff in Atlanta, and audited thousands of hours in the Atlanta area during 1984 – 1994. I was the ED of the Atlanta Org for about 1 or 2 years (it’s a blur). I regged, recruited, did finance, PR, marketing and promotion, training…you name it, I pretty much had to do it all at one time or another. That was the job, crusade, purpose line, whatever.

I was also on staff at FCDC for 6 months. If I recall correctly, I got the WDAH up to the highest, or second highest in the history of FCDC. Just mintues before we had the weekly meeting that Thursday night, an SO member ferociously blasted me for not getting the hours higher. The ferocity of that berating caused something inside me to snap. Working 15 hours per day 7 days per week, with weeks of screaming affluence (actually, the only things actually screaming were the SO missionaires in the org), and what do I get? Screamed at with such hatred and animosity that I realized the Scientology I had known no longer existed. If someone talked to me like that today, I fear my response would be much more drastic. But, interestingly, those things never seem to happen out in the real world, for some strange reason. Not without dire consequences, at least.

I blew 3 times from Scientology during my time on staff. The first was after I’d worked 16 hours per day for 11 months, no days off, including the week we won the birthday game.
I was ‘recovered’ back to staff 2 times.
The third time, in 1996, was a charm, because I haven’t been back since. That time I made sure that it would be nearly impossible to find me. And it was.

It was always a mystery to me why things on staff became more and more difficult as the years went by. After finally getting out and later finding resources online, it’s all become clear.

I’m not writing to bash the technology of Scientology, or LRH. Certainly there were some crazy things that went on. Maybe that’s not harsh enough for some.
I’ve read many of the horror stories, and have my own personal stories of neglect, abuse, deprivation, poverty and irresponsibility, which includes my own mammoth irresponsibility.
By no means am I holier than thou. But I’m sure you’ve read enough of those.

I only want to say this: there is life outside Scientology.
While on staff, I was so convinced that some horrible thing would happen if I left Scientology. The truth is, nothing horrible happened. I didn’t freak out. I didn’t go crazy, or come down with some terrible and incurable illness. I always heard that “you won’t ‘make it’ if you leave Scientology”. But that’s not true.
Any adverse effects in life were due to my own lack of ethics or inability to handle the situation. There was no big mysterious bogey man who came and took my mind and life away.

I have had to lie on resumes to fill the period I was on staff. What non-Scientologist could understand “1984 – 1994, Scientology staff member”? Leaving the church at age 42 didn’t bode well in the working world without a work history that an employer could relate to. I’ve bullshitted my way through enough interviews, and creatively fashioned a false history. Who can relate to Scientology? It was hard enough getting the people who were somewhat curious to be interested in the subject.

It did take some time to adjust to the outside world, because things had changed in the world and I wasn’t there to keep up with the changes. I joke with my friends that I missed the 80’s. It’s true.
But time has passed, I’ve been through my own personal inval and eval cycles, bounced around through various jobs, screwed up, done crazy things.
I eventually realized that I was an able person prior to Scientology, and even more able since, out of necessity.

In my opinion, Scientology technology has its merits, despite those who say otherwise. But rather than argue the point, I would mostly like to address this post to the tempted ones, those who think maybe it’s time to get out of the church.

I will say that if you are thinking of leaving the church, there’s a good reason that you’re thinking that.

Once you get online and check out some of the data out here (and there is a vast array of opinions online), you will see that there are some people who have had similar experiences. And you’ll be shocked by some of the realities that you’ve been shielded from. Be prepared, it’s not a pretty sight.

For those who have been out, this is old hat, I know. I only hope to influence someone who’s still on the fence.

There is life after Scientology.

My best to you.

Published in: on December 1, 2012 at 12:43 pm  Comments (1)  

The URI to TrackBack this entry is: https://androvillans.wordpress.com/2012/12/01/ex-scientologist-story-412-there-is-life-after-scientology/trackback/

RSS feed for comments on this post.

One CommentLeave a comment


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: