2014, “Scientology Under Seige.”


2014 Scientology Under Siege

The year 2014 was not a good one for the cult of Scientology. They have been pummeled in the press and cornered in the court room. Mike Rinder, former head of the cult’s OSA Int. has chronicled the failure of the “Ideal Orgs.” as well as the under-handed methods used by Scientology to pry money loose from its shrinking band of members. His blog  is the best of its kind. http://www.mikerindersblog.org/ The question that will be most asked at this time of the year is, “What was the most significant event that took place during the past year?” That is as difficult to answer as it would be to find Shelly Miscavige, the missing wife of Scientology dictator David Miscavige.. After all, there are the empty course rooms to consider, the sale of the future Boston Ideal Org, (premises too SMALL the cult claims,) as well as the moribund condition of the other orgs, especially the one in Pasadena, not to mention demise or rather consolidation, of one of the oldest orgs in the LA area. While the continued demise of Scientology has picked up some speed this past year to my mind the most significant event is the  

Decline and Fall of Narconon

At this moment their flagship facility, Narconon Arrowhead, located in Oklahoma, is on life support, the number of strange deahs at that facility was enough to motivate the state legislature to enact new laws to close the loophole that allowed Narconon to  operate for so many years under the radar.  This once big cash cow of Scientology is now losing tens of thousands of dollars a week. How long this retreat into the red ink will continue is unknown. Sooner or later Scientology will have to pull the plug on this white elephant although there is talk of turning it into a halfway house. How the mighty have fallen.  The suits against Narconon and its Scientology parent organizations hit an all-time high during 2014 with one lawyer alone accounting for some 25 suits. Tony Ortega has kept an eye on this: http://tonyortega.org/2014/12/23/scientologys-2014-in-review-march Finding reasons to sue Narconon has never been hard considering it is all a money-making scam by Scientology whose teachings might drive a person towards drugs but offer only limp Scientology methods to treat addiction, none of which is based on science. The problem has always been finding brave people willing to stand up and tell their story, and of course getting attorneys willing to fight the cult. This has become easier and easier as Scientology has been shown up to be the cowards that they are. The weakness of the cult has extended to their legal arm, for all of their bluster the cult is just another toothless paper tiger. Even more damaging is the suit brought forward by the National Association of Forensic Counselors against the entire Narconon drug facility network, their parent organizations and many individuals for, among other things, copyright infringement. The suit claims that employees of Narconon put false credentials in their offices. Again, Tony Ortega has covered this suit which has the potential to give Scientology another even larger, PR black eye. http://tonyortega.org/2014/05/19/scientologys-drug-rehab-network-sued-for-conspiring-to-misuse-counseling-credentials/ 2014 has seen the continuation of Scientology’s attempt to stamp out dissent by harassing former members.  The wife of Marty Rathbon, Monique, brought suit against the cult for pestering her via their screwball “Squirrel Busters.”  This case is a long way from going before a jury due to the delaying tactics of the cult but enough information comes out now and again to help blacken the cult’s name.  Here is a link to Marty’s blog, as the former Inspector General of Scientology his words carry weight.  http://markrathbun.wordpress.com/ Former Scientology bigwig Mike Rinder takes a sour view of Scientology’s chances for 2015 in his blog.  http://tonyortega.org/2015/01/05/former-spokesman-mike-rinder-describes-scientologys-dismal-options/

UPDATE:   http://narcononreviews.net/narconon-reviews/newly-published-dox-survey-responses-and-pages-oh-my/

2015 Starts

Apocalypse Now

HBO Releases “Going Clear” by Alex Gibney

Based on the book, “Going Clear” by Lawrence Wright.

A media firestorm follows the release of the film at the Sundance Film Frestival.  

Scientology pummeled in the press and thenmakes things a whole lot worse by attacking the attackers.  Here is a small sample of this most recent Scientology mega PR disaster.

Sundance: Scientology Film Subjects Called “Brave,” Get Standing Ovation   The Hollywood Reporter

5 Surprising Revelations From HBO’s New Scientology Documentary ‘Going Clear’   Alternet

5 big revelations in HBO’s new Scientology documentary ‘Going Clear’ Raw Story

Sundance: HBO’s Scientology Exposé Going Clear Is Jaw-Dropping  Vulture 

Scientology Doc ‘Going Clear’ Claims the Church Split Up Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman  The Daily Beast

How did Scientology respond?  The same old way it always does.

Scientology Is Now Trying To Bully Film Critics Over “Going Clear” The Daily Banter

Scientology Drags Out Old Playbook In Response To New Exposé  Addicting Info

Former high-ranking Scientologist Mike Rinder takes a shot at his old boss David Miscavige and his handling of the most recent disaster for Scientology. 

Scientology Cowards


As the dismal year for Scientology got off to a bang writerscontinue to pour gasoline on the flames.


Janet Charlton’s Hollywood.

One of Scientology’s front groups gets caught out.

Parents Outraged After Scientology-Sponsored Group Delivers Anti-Drug Messages At New York City Schools

  IBT News

Published in: on December 27, 2014 at 3:26 pm  Leave a Comment  

Pam Bondi, Florida Attorney General, Takes Campaign Money From Scientologists.


Florida Attorney General trains for her new role in carrying water for the cult of Scientology.

Floridians have recently been perplexed with the actions of their State’s Attorney in fighting to ban gay marriage even though the tide of public opinion is flowing against her.  Not only has public opinion changed on this volatile issue the courts have now been ruling time after time to allow gay marriage.  Many question the wisdom, and the expense, of fighting a rearguard action in a lost cause.

While many would condemn her for these futile battles it is possible to understand why she does it.  Maybe she has strict religious motives or, as a political figure she finds it expedient to reflect the values of her party base.  These are rational explanations of her position that we can all understand even if we don’t agree with her.  It is much harder though, to find any rational or moral high ground whatsoever in her accepting campaign donations from Scientologists.  Here is a link to an article on this subject that appeared in The Tampa Bay Times. http://www.tampabay.com/news/scientology/pam-bondis-clearwater-fundraiser-organized-by-scientologists/2186599 and this one from New Times Blog.  http://blogs.browardpalmbeach.com/pulp/2014/07/scientologists_host_pam_bondi_fundraiser_tonight.php

So why get upset about that?  Aren’t people of any religion, even one for tax purposes like Scientology, able to donate to whomever they wish? Yes, certainly.  But such is the tyrannical authority that Scientology holds over its followers that the support for a political candidate, especially when that turns into financial support, would have to come from the highest levels within the group.

So what would Scientology expect to get from supporting a candidate for Attorney General?  The short answer is that Scientology itself, or via one of its many front groups, is always fighting somebody in court.  For a more detailed answer take a look at Scientology and its history.

Before I go any farther I would introduce you to Dr. David Minkoff, a Scientologist and donor to Pam Bondi’s campaign.  He lost his licence to practice medicine for a year due to his role in the death of Lisa McPherson, a fellow Scientologist in Clearwater, FL.


 To learn more about this tragic affair in which a 36-year-old woman died for no good reason other than the crass stupidity and negligence of Scientology follow this link.  http://www.lisamcpherson.org/


Wherever you find Scientology you will also see

Scandals, lawsuits and unexplained deaths. 


Scientology 101 (all hail Xenu)

L. Ron Hubbard.

The dubious prodigy, wives, writing, stolen valor, empire builder and recluse.

Abuse in Scientology

BEYOND BELIEF: My Secret Life Inside Scientology and My Harrowing Escape by Jenn Miscavige Hill


Published in: on September 13, 2014 at 11:39 pm  Leave a Comment  

Camilla Andersson, 29 Years in the Sea Org. Ex-Scientologist Story #446.


Camilla Andersson enlisted in the Sea Org when she was only 17 years, she was a second generation Scientologist.  She worked her way to the top of Scientology only to learn the the high you fly in that cult the more severe your punishments will be if you screw up.  Of course that means you.  For one mistake Camilla ended up sleeping for a night in a tree.  Such is the fate of those who find themselves in Hubbard’s dry land navy.  


Want more?  Try this.


Published in: on September 1, 2014 at 7:36 pm  Leave a Comment  

“Hell, it’s extortion,” said the vet. Ex-Scientologist story #445


Lee Shewmaker, 71, is a veterinarian. Originally, he’s from Kentucky, and he speaks with a pleasant twang. He operates his animal clinic in the Florida town of LaBelle, on the Caloosahatchee River, about halfway between Ft. Myers and Lake Okeechobee. Lee serves the local community not only with his clinic, but also with a converted RV so he can take his practice on the road for large animal care.

Like other professionals, he was recruited into Scientology through something called Sterling Management Services. In 1990 he signed up with Sterling to help him manage his business — vets, chiropractors, and dentists are targeted by Sterling, which licenses L. Ron Hubbard’s management “technology” from the World Institute of Scientology Enterprises, WISE, a Scientology front group.

Lee’s short involvement with Sterling (only about six months) led to his becoming a Scientologist at a San Francisco mission, then later the Los Angeles org and ultimately at Scientology’s spiritual mecca in Clearwater, Florida.

Lee estimates that he gave Scientology half a million dollars over his career.  “I spent too damn much money. I borrowed a bunch of money and gave it to Scientology for my Bridge, and it was too much,” he says.

Like other Scientologists, he was encouraged to spend increasing amounts for services as he went step by step up Hubbard’s “Bridge to Total Freedom.” He was also encouraged to give donations for various church causes, including the International Association of Scientologists (IAS) which acts as Scientology’s legal defense fund. He was also hit up to pay for copies of Hubbard’s pamphlet The Way to Happiness to be distributed to the public, along with Scientology’s various building schemes.

But when the economy went sour, Lee realized that he needed to scale back, and fast.  “Four or five years ago, I was telling them, hey, I’m in trouble.”

Lee says he had put too much money into Scientology while his business was experiencing a downturn. The combination had the potential to put him underwater. But when he tried to explain why he couldn’t make more donations or spend more on courses, he says the church reacted with threats.  “Of course they kept threatening to send me to ethics. Hell, it’s extortion,” he says. “They withhold services unless you give them more money. They want you to donate to the IAS, The Way to Happiness, and a lot more.”

Over his lengthy career in the church, Lee had progressed into the upper level teachings of Scientology, reaching Operating Thetan Level 7 — just one below the highest spot on the Bridge, OT 8. But as we’ve documented previously, many Scientologists get stuck on OT 7, sometimes for years. And every six months while they’re “on the level,” as they say, they are required to go to Flag (the ‘mecca’ in Clearwater) for interrogations and other expensive services. Often, however, when members go to Flag, they find themselves stuck in “ethics” investigations that can take weeks and cost huge amounts without making progress on the Bridge.

Lee made his most recent trip to Flag for the New Year’s Eve event four months ago, a lavish affair which featured Scientology leader David Miscavige giving a two-hour presentation about the church’s successes in 2013.  “It was a big deal, man. But I’ve always felt it was a big hoax. They talk about all this good they’re doing, but you don’t see it anywhere else. You don’t see it in the newspapers. You don’t see it on the TV news. You only see what their camera crews are putting on. Because all they get is bad press,” Lee says.

While he was there, Lee stuck around for his OT 7 semi-annual update.

“I went for my refresher. They kept me in ethics forever and ever. I told them, hey, I have to go home.”

Not only had he been away too long from his business, but he’d also, once again, been talked into spending a large amount of money. This time, he was convinced to spend $5,000 on a new Mark Ultra VIII E-meter — the new machine that Miscavige wants every member to purchase for the new “Golden Age of Tech Phase II” technology update which he released in November.

Tired of being held up without progress on his OT levels, Lee decided to return home.  “I told them I’d be back in a month or so. But I’m not going back,” he says.  Besides his disaffection with Miscavige, Lee has more immediate concerns at home. With his business doing about half of what it was five years ago, Lee recently decided he needed to seek protection in court.  “I had to file bankruptcy. I got foreclosed on.” He has submitted a payment plan to the court to get him debt-free in five years while he carries on with his business. “The bank’s fighting it, but so far it’s working,” he says.

Then, two weeks ago, he got a surprise visit. It was a couple of ethics officers from Flag, who showed up at his house and demanded that Lee turn over the E-meter he had bought just a few months before. They handed him a check for the full amount he’d paid — a little over $5,000 — and took the machine away with them.  Had the church somehow heard that he’d decided not to go back?

“I think they were more concerned about the bankruptcy,” Lee says. “What they’re scared of is the bank might come after them.”

With so much of his money in the church, he explains, his creditors might go after Scientology to get their money back. He figures that’s why Scientology is so ready to cut off ties with him, and sent out two Masters-At-Arms to retrieve his E-meter.  Looking back, Lee talked about the good things he says he took from Scientology, and other things that have long bothered him.  “I’ve had a lot of wins. I probably wouldn’t be around here if it weren’t for my being in Scientology,” he says. But those “wins,” he points out, tended to come during the initial, low-level Scientology courses.

“I think they’re a bunch of fucking crooks. Especially after I got into the upper levels. It wasn’t like this when i was in the lower levels. Yeah, they did a lot of regging [fundraising], but not for the IAS. That’s really increased in the last two or three years. I’m tired of that shit,” he says.

He’s also left with a bitter taste in regards to his children. Neither of them are church members, but Lee says his son, J.L., went through a traumatizing incident in the Caribbean.

“I took my son to the ship when he was 15 years old,” he says, referring to the Freewinds, Scientology’s private cruise ship. “They talked him into a basic study course.”  But when they tried to leave, J.L. was held against his will — ostensibly for missing a few questions on his course.  “My son hates Scientology,” Lee says.  And as for his daughter, Bridgitte?  “They talked me into firing my daughter. They said she was suppressive.”

Today, Lee regrets listening to Scientology and firing his daughter because she was “suppressive” (had negative intentions toward Scientology). But things turned out well — Bridgitte works for another veterinarian firm, and D.L. works for the state’s animal control division. Lee says his wife has never been involved in Scientology. “She went with me to the New Year’s Even event, and hated it,” he says.  He admits that it was difficult for him to be the only dedicated Scientologist in the family. But now, that makes it easier for him to leave.

Recently, Lee reached out to Karen de la Carriere, hoping to find information about how to continue his studies outside the church, as an independent Scientologist.  He still has affinity for L. Ron Hubbard and the ideas underlying Scientology. But as for Miscavige?

“I think he’s a damn criminal,” Lee says. “All he’s worried about is the money.”

 This was taken from Tony Ortega’s blog and can be read by going here:  http://tonyortega.org/2014/05/01/scientologys-e-meter-police-and-the-horse-doctor-of-labelle-florida/

Here is something on the subject of David Miscavige.



Published in: on May 15, 2014 at 11:32 pm  Leave a Comment  

Ryan Hogarth, Ex-Scientologist Story #444


Nothing will save you from the meat grinder of Scientology if the Nazis at the top get even a little whiff of a person daring to doubt or to indeed, think for themselves.  The following story has been told time and again in the history of Scientology but more frequently the last few years as Scientology continues to implode.  Doubt is fought with the most potent weapon at the disposal of the fanatical lickspittles who cringe at the feet of David Miscavige.  Their weapon, the one that they claim they don’t have, is disconnection.  If you leave your friends and family will kick your butt as you walk out the door.  They will be forced to leave you in the dust or else they too will be kicked out; and that of course means no more services.  But yet for all of that people DO leave, all the time.  Here is the story of another brave man.  Hear what Ryan Hogarth has to say:


I was born into a Scientology family. My grandmother knew and worked with LRH in Rhodesia. She moved to South Africa in 1966 with her two sons, Robin & Simon,  to work full time for Scientology. Both Robin & Simon also joined staff. My parents, Simon & Anne, met at Joburg in 1970.

That makes me, I guess, a 3rd generation Scientologist. My wife (Melissa) and son (Tyler) have both served on staff. Between the three of us we have given 46 years of staff service to Scientology in South Africa.

My gran passed away in 2003 and my mother and father are still in the Sea Org.


My mom was transferred to OSA US in 1985 when I was 13 years old. I was recruited into the Sea Org within 4 days of arriving in Los Angeles. I was just so happy to be out of school and out of South Africa it seemed a perfectly smart thing to do. There would be no more formal schooling beyond the primary school I’d completed.

I loved LA and loved being in the Sea Org there. Although I was only there for just shy of 3 months I felt I’d made a home there. Sadly we all had to move back to South Africa. My mom’s replacement didn’t work out.

I was posted in OSA and I spent the entire 25 years on staff in OSA, both Sea Org and Class V staff.

For the first 7 years of my staff career all my posts in OSA were internal– recruitment of staff, hatting, ethics. In 1989 I met Melissa, my future wife. She was a DSA from Port Elizabeth. She was gorgeous and I was in love almost immediately. Our relationship was verboten since she was not Sea Org. But somehow we still managed to get married in spite of this in July 1989.


Melissa never got to join the Sea Org as she was asked to fill the DSA Joburg post “temporarily” which became permanent. Although she wasn’t an SO member she stayed at the SO base and was expected to work an SO schedule.

In July 1991 two years after our wedding Melissa fell pregnant. As it was now Sea Org policy that Sea org members were not allowed to have children I would have to leave. This was a particularly rough period of time. Melissa was viewed with great suspicion, the thinking being that she had “done this deliberately”. She faced particularly brutal ethics action and at 6 months pregnant was doing deck work sanding floors and facing an aggressive committee of evidence. I don’t dwell on regrets much but when I do it’s around this period and how I didn’t do enough to prevent my pregnant wife being treated this way.

At the age of 19 our son, Tyler, was born on the 13th of March 1992. Melissa was on post until 10pm the night before he was born. In fact we went to the hospital from the org. Any doubts, upsets or confusions in my life evaporated at the moment I held him in my hands. Nothing gets you focused like a new life that depends completely and utterly upon you.

6 months after his birth we left the Sea Org base and began life on our own as parents and full time Joburg staff. Our first residence out of the Sea Org was a cottage rented to us by a Scientologist for R25 a week. We were almost immediately behind on the rent, not making enough money to cover this tiny amount. We were broke constantly and on more than one occasion I walked around collecting empty cooldrink bottles to get the deposit on returning them in order to buy milk & bread. Life was a continual financial struggle. We didn’t have a car or any family to assist. Melissa’s family lived in Port Elizabeth and mine lived in LA. During all of this we never doubted our commitment to the church and ultimately changing the world. Life continued in this fashion for the next 4 years.

However it got the point where we couldn’t continue. Melissa took two leaves of absence. First in 1996 and again in 2000. Both times she returned when we believed that “things were really going to turn around now”. In 2001 Melissa was recruited to be the Chaplain. Ken Krieger convinced Melissa & I that she would make more than sufficient money as a Chaplain from selling materials so she rejoined and went to Flag to train.



In the late 90s Joburg Org was situated in the city centre which by that time had deteriorated to the point where fewer public were willing to come to the org, particularly at night.

We decided to find a new building out of the city. This was a local decision borne from necessity. We involved our OT public and a search began. Pandy Katakuzinos in 1999 found the perfect building and the Corbett’s put up the money (which was later repaid by Sea Org reserves).

We needed around R1.2 million to renovate. Fund raising began by asking public to put money into the org for services. We really felt we could do it this way. By late 2000 we abandoned this approach and went for straight donations. Something like this had never been done before so there was general agreement and excitement. By mid 2002 renovations were complete and we were ready to move! The problem was we just couldn’t get the okay from “uplines” to move. Months went by with our new building standing there, empty but ready! In late 2002 we received a briefing and brand new plans. The building was going to be huge! We were going to build an extra two buildings, and add a level to the main building. The size of the org doubled. “Ideal Orgs” had been born! The budget shot up to over R17 million.

Two things happened with Miscavige that unsettled me. The first was when he gave a briefing to all staff and Sea Org. During his briefing a CMO crew member was falling asleep (she had been up for days prior). Mid sentence Miscavige snapped his fingers in her direction and yelled “YOU! Get out! Now. GET OUT!”. Humiliated she stood up from the front row and walked out past everyone.

The other occurred in the exec space of the org, which Miscavige was using. I walked into the area heading to my office. No one else was around. He was eating in the conference room. He saw me and said antagonistically “What are you doing here? You are not supposed to be here!” I was flummoxed and froze on the spot. He then bellowed with laughter and said “Just kidding”.

From the opening I assumed the title of “President of the Church of Scientology Johannesburg” It is a PR post and essentially translates to “spokesperson”. I took to it with vigour and for the next 6 years I was an active and frequent spokesperson for the church. Over time this morphed into being the national spokesperson although this was never official but no one else would or could speak to the media. In those 6 years I appeared on local, regional and national television, radio and print media. I actually developed working relationships with some journalists, relationships which I have maintained to this day.

In 2005 I got myself in hot water. I was interviewed by a national magazine. They asked the question “How much does it cost to get to OT VII?” My thought in answering the question was that we always skirt the issue of money like it doesn’t exist. So I decided to be open about it. I said “around R700 000”. This was a terrible underestimation as it was. When the article ran I got a Knowledge Report and a cram for answering the question.

Also in 2005 I was asked to come to LA to be in the President’s office and be an International Spokesperson. By then Heber was long gone and, as I would find out later, Mike Rinder was in the hole. I already had differing opinions on how the media should be handled. I felt my views on how to do it would not be accepted. I said that I would likely land up on the RPF fairly quickly so let’s rather not waste each other’s time.

The period between November 2003 and May 2005 were the best years I ever spent on staff.  We were left alone to do our jobs. We never got to the level of staff pay that had been promised but everyone ignored that because it was a good time to be on staff and we were making progress.  Don’t get me wrong there were a fair share of bizarre orders but the pain pleasure ratio was finally in proportion. In March 2005 we were announced as St. Hill Size at the Int March 13 event. A Universe Corps team arrived in April to audit the staff to OT. We had a huge public event. Staff were happy, public were happy. We had made it! All the years of hardship had been worth it. I had the most amount of auditing I’d ever had to that point. I went from nowhere on the bridge up and onto NED within 5 months. Melissa went clear.

Despite the excitement things were changing. In early May I was called to an urgent meeting along with other org executives convened by Ken Krieger. With a straight face he told us “50,000 people have to watch the May 9 event!”. The event was 10 days away! I thought he was out of his mind and pretty sure everyone else in the room thought the same. But we all nodded and gave a firm “Yes sir!”. Off we went to work out what unusual solutions we could come up with. We spent in the region of R60,000 or more trying in vain to attain this target.

This for me was the end of the honeymoon. Soon the org was again under financial stress, the Sea Org were back in the org micromanaging and it felt an awful lot like it had for all the years prior to the move.

By the end of 2005 the Universe Corps was falling apart and by May 2006 they were all gone never to return save one brave but vain attempt in 2008.


The hype around the Basics began, I believe at the start of 2007. We were hearing about a major overhaul of all the books of Scientology and that a “new breed of Scientologist” was coming. This was the release of the Basics which was to be the worst two years of my Scientology staff career.

Whatever org pattern and structure existed completely fell apart. EVERY staff member had to contribute to sales. Either directly or through “recoveries”

At the same time there was continued push on Ideal Orgs. Even though we were in one we had to get a Test Centre, we had to help the other orgs become Ideal. To add insanity to stupidity we had IAS targets as well. At one point, during 2009 it was Basics sales during the day and two Ideal Org events and one IAS event per week.

It was with this backdrop that one April morning while sitting in my office I had an epiphany: I could leave! This was a thought I never allowed myself to have. My staff contract would expire in January 2010 and I would leave.

In July 2009 I was reading the daily “Google Alert” for media on Scientology. I saw the name Marty Rathbun. Marty was a god from my standpoint. He was at the very top of my command line. I trusted him implicitly. I assumed he was making a media statement and since I hadn’t heard from him in a while I was keen to hear what he had to say. The story was the “Truth Rundown” in the St. Pete Times. It took several minutes for me to realise that Marty was not talking FOR the church. He was out and what he was saying was being confirmed by Mike Rinder the second most senior person on my command line. Time stood still as I watched, in slow motion, my life shatter in front of me.

For the next two days I did ZERO post work. I locked my door and read EVERYTHING I could find on the Internet. I cannot adequately explain the feeling of your entire life’s purpose and goals unravelling before you. But that’s what was happening. I got to see that the madness and mayhem in South African Orgs was not a localised problem. It was a global pandemic.

Over the ensuing 8 weeks I continued to read, I made contact with Marty and others. My decision to leave was now more firm than ever.


In November 2010 I was asked to go to OSA Int to route off staff.  After initially refusing I went. I had 28 days of straight security checking and little bit of case clean up at the end. For the most part I was treated very well which probably had a lot to do with the prevailing mood at the time, being just 6 months after the devastating “Truth Rundown” series of articles in the St Pete Times. I was very open – I told them everything I had done, everything I had read, everyone I had been in comm with. I asked all the questions I had. Some were handled well, most poorly. I read Mike & Marty’s declares which didn’t handle much. As for questions about the Int Base and “the hole”, these were categorically denied. I made a decision to accept what I was being told at face value and to see how it all panned out.

While “seeing how things panned out” I would not interact with anyone outside the church or any websites outside of official Scientology.

On my final day as a staff member I was collected by my brother who lives there. We got into his Jeep and hit the Pacific Coast highway. It was around 11.30pm. We cranked up the music and I sang my heart out. I was done! I was free! I was on my own. I had not been that happy in well over 5 years.

I arrived back in South Africa on the 20th of February and began my new life. I was 38 with no career, no insurance, no medical cover, no savings and a mountain of debt (most of which was Scientology materials related).

But Melissa & I had never been happier! Our life was OURS! Ours alone.

In the 3/12 years since I’ve built a successful career as a professional speaker and a budding career as a writer. I have had the considerable honour & pleasure of meeting and working with some of the greatest business thinkers in the country.

I tried for a short while to stay connected and work on projects but it became plain that nothing inside the church would change. It was the same old same old. Fund raising, promises and regging. Additionally Melissa & I realised that this group is so small and so toxic it was claustrophobic so we made the decision to build a life completely outside of Scientology which we have since done.

At the same time I tried to reconnect with every friend I had ever left behind, both Scientologists and not. I had come to see that I had lost connections for a variety of ridiculous reasons ranging from “he’s not a Scientologist” to “he’s not an upstat Scientologist”. The time spent reconnecting was incredibly therapeutic and it became my policy to always be open to communication, if it was genuine & real. People may well cut their comm with me but it won’t be me with them!

For a long time Melissa & I thought we had left it all behind us and it would become a dimming part of our history. However two things happened:

  1. I rediscovered L. Ron Hubbard on my own terms and came to appreciate in a very personal way the value in his work. This appreciation came mostly from being able to reject some of his writings at my own discretion. It made those parts that are truly profound even more so.

  2. Melissa & I began receiving calls from people asking, firstly, “what happened to you guys?” and secondly “what the hell is going on with our church?”

The first point made me realise that the philosophy is important enough that it deserves a chance in this world and that it will never get a chance as long as it remains in the hands of the church as it is now.

The second point got me talking openly with Scientologists who had themselves observed the outnesses within the church. We answered their questions.

This served to put me on the radar and over time it became a greater problem. In March this year I met with an OSA Int person who had come to do PR work for the opening of the Pretoria Ideal Org. We had a long, frank and robust conversation. He eventually asked in exasperation, “Well, what do you want Ryan!?”

My answer was that I wanted Scientologists, the many very clever Scientologists who had built this church to have a platform to openly discuss and debate what the church is doing and to have a say in the direction it takes. The response was simple and direct “Ryan, you know that will never happen.”

I told him there was then no point in us talking further.

To read the entire blog entry go here: http://www.mikerindersblog.org/ryan-hogarth-steps-forward/

Are you interested in seeing proof of Scientology’s growth?  Are they growing or do they just own a bunch of empty buildings?




Published in: on May 14, 2014 at 6:08 pm  Leave a Comment  

Scott and Kerry Campbell, Ex-Scientologist Story #443

You are coming back? Thanks for the warning,  We'll hide our money.

You are coming back? Thanks for the warning, We’ll hide our money.

Scott and Kerry Campbell spent decades inside of the Sea Org, and what was their reward for working long days with little time off?  What did they get for sacrificing their lives for the benefit of L. Ron Hubbard’s teachings?  They each got a bill for the “services” they took during their time in.  Kerry got a bill for $ 69,772.50 and Scott was charged $94,111.00 for the privilege of being slaves.

Both filled declarations in support of the Garcia’s lawsuit against Scientology, you can read it by this link  http://tonyortega.org/2013/04/22/garcias-respond-to-scientology-youre-a-big-ripoff/


Scott made a number of videos that are now on YouTube.  You will have to see these for yourself and make up you own mind but his story is a harrowing tale of abuse and betrayal; words familiar to those who follow the history of Scientology.








Published in: on May 13, 2014 at 8:28 pm  Leave a Comment  

Günther Völler, Ex-Scientologist Story #442

The ultimate cult of greed.

The ultimate cult of greed.

Not ever person who curses the name of Scientology dictator David Miscavige is a defector from Scientology.  On the contrary, many dedicated Scientologists lay the blame for the decline and many recent defeats of Scientology, at his door while still clinging to the notion that there is still value and merit to be found in the “tech” of L. Ron Hubbard.  Gunther Voller is one of these people; or at least he was when he posted the following in the blog of Marty Rathbun who shares many of Voller’s beliefs.

WARNING.  The extreme in-group slang of the following word salad only makes sense to Scientologists or those who have studied them for too long.  Prolonged exposure to these words, terms and literary delirium temens can cause severe  boredom.  Here is a link to Marty’s blog.  http://www.mikerindersblog.org/gunther-voller-writes-to-captain-miscavige/

To Mr. David Miscavige COB RTC


Günther Völler Public Scientologist                                                                      13 November 2013

My name is Günther Völler. I became a member of the Church of Scientology in 1987 at Bern Org, later at Zurich Org, Switzerland.  From the very first moment, I developed an intense interest in reading, studying,  learning and applying the teachings of Mr. L. Ron Hubbard.  I wanted to go up The Bridge, and I wanted to help others do so as well.

Throughout the years, I have taken many courses and received a lot of auditing, becoming a Class IV auditor, Ethics Specialist, a graduate of the PTS/SP course,Volunteer Minister, and also completed the Basics Books and Lectures.

I am on New OT VII, a Patron of the IAS, and a contributor to Basel/Zurich-Org , libraries.  I have learned much and I have great gains from my involvement with Scientology. I have the utmost respect and gratitude to LRH, and to all the staff across the globe that selflessly dedicate their lives to help others, and the many devoted public who have helped so much.

I am first and foremost a Scientologist; i.e.:  I have made it a practice to adopt stable data as I learned them in Scientology and found them to be workable and true. One Stable datum I adopted early on from The Code of Honor is:

“Never compromise with your own reality.”  Another one, is : “Look, don’t listen.”  I took these and many other data to heart and I used them as guide posts in my life every day.  “WHAT IS TRUE FOR YOU is what you have observed yourself.  And when you lose that, you have lost everything.  What is personal integrity?  Personal integrity is knowing what you know  …And to have the courage to know and say what you have observed.  … And sufficient personal belief and confidence in self   And courage that we can observe what we observe  And say what we have observed.  Nothing in Dianetics and Scientology is true for you  Unless you have observed it  And it is true according to your observation.

That is all”   Ability, Issue 125 February 1961(Tech Vol. VI, p. 23)

In following the above I must state I have found Scientology to be true. I have found LRH to speak the truth. I have also found to be true that from current and former members of our church, telling a sad tale of abuse, alteration and misapplication of the Tech, heavy-handed ethics, malfeasance, lies, out-ethics, extortion, blackmail, harassment, enforced realities and just plain viciousness.

Furthermore, I take responsibility for it happening in the first place. My communication to you today is more about an objective view of the current state of affairs in our church.  As I understand it, you are the complete leader and decision maker for our church. I also understand that all projects, programs, etc., are under your direct control and that you order and approve all of them. In other words, you run everything in the church.

Every Scientologist knows without a doubt that you are The Boss.  This is an important point, because as LRH said:  “The primary aberration in situations that are being mishandled is: “The person is unable to recognize Source.”  HCOPL 23 April 1965, Issue3, Problems.  Well, I do recognize that you are Source. Not as Source of Scientology, of course. But as Source of everything that is happening with the church today.

Here are some points:

1. The Ideal Org strategy is flawed and it is in violation of LRH’s policy

1.1:  Public all over the world are being pushed to donate, in many cases beyond their means, for the purchase of large and expensive buildings and their lavish renovations. This is wrong on so many fronts it is appalling.

1.2:  This violates the three conditions of existence, BE, DO, HAVE, and it creates a Must -have before we can do or be. I often read promo promising “the Ideal Org will boom the Org.” This is just not true and it is observable at the existing Ideal Orgs, which have not expanded in terms of new public, more students and more PCs.

1.3:  The Ideal Org strategy shifts the focus of importance from Service to a building.

1.4:  The Ideal Org strategy extracts “donations” from public, reducing their resources and ability to donate for their own Bridge. In many extreme cases, they end up saddled with a huge debt that totally removes any hope of ever being able to “go OT.”

1.5: “All Orgs must go Ideal” even violates the most basic and common sense principles of business. Many of the Orgs are not viable, have not enough staff, nor students or PCs, and are, quite obviously, floundering and empty of public. Yet, they are being ordered to expand into quarters much larger and much more expensive to maintain, before they have the natural need to expand into larger quarters.

These are some LRH references on this matter, which I am sure you are familiar with, but choose to ignore:

“We own a tremendous amount of property. We own a tremendous amount of material, and so forth. And it keeps growing. But that’s not important. When buildings get important to us, for God’s sake, some of you born revolutionists, will you please blow up central headquarters….Don’t get interested in real estate. “Don’t get interested in the masses of buildings, because that’s not important.”  Tape: The Genus of Scientology Anatomy of the Human Mind Congress 31 December 1960

“…In twenty years an enormous amount of experience has been gained regarding the quarters and  housing of orgs. From this experience there are only a few clear -cut lessons. These follow:

A. VIABILITY of the org… is the first and foremost consideration… not how posh or what repute or what image.

C. Image is a secondary consideration.

HCO PL 23 Sept 1970 Quarters, Policy Regarding –Historical

 “…So little by little, using donations you give us for your service, your training and your processing, we create little by little areas of sanity.”  LRH The Auditor #51, 1970 What Your Donations Buy

 “If the org slumps…don’t engage in ‘fund-raising’ or ‘selling postcards’ or borrowing money.Just make more income with Scientology. It’s a sign of very poor management to seek extraordinary solutions for finance outside Scientology.It has always failed.“For orgs as for pcs, ‘Solve It With Scientology’.

Every time I myself have sought to solve financial or personnel in other ways than Scientology I have lost out. So I can tell you from experience that org solvency lies in More Scientology, not patented pens or fund- raising barbeques.”

HCO PL 24 February 1964, Issue II Org Programming (OEC Vol. 7, p. 930)

2. You are lying to the public with stories of “Unprecedented Expansion”by using squirrel stats in violation of LRH’s policy.

LRH emphasized time and again that there is only one way to gauge the expansion of Scientology:

“The most direct observation in an org (or a country) is statistics. These tell of production. They measure what is done. It cannot be said too often that management is best done by statistics….Run only by statistics.” HCOPL 5 February 1970 Statistics, Management by (OEC Vol. 7, p. 514)

“Stat management is the only kind of management you can do on a production scene. Management by statistics was brought to a fine art in Scientology admin tech. To discredit it is, of course, to court failureHCO PL 20 September 1976 -1Org Series 35-1, Stat Push Clarified (OEC Vol. 0, p. 696)

“By actual experience working and managing in many activities, I can state flatly that the most dangerous worker-manager thing to do is to work or manage from something else than statistics.” HCO PL 7 July 1970 Data Series 14, Working and Managing (OEC Management Series Vol. 1, p. 68)

“Therefore the only organization that is a sound organization is one WHOSE EVERY ACTIVITY can be tabulated by statistics.” HCO PL 13 March 1965, Issue III The Structure of Organization—What Is Policy (OEC Vol. 7, p. 660)

“NEVER RUN OR MANAGE BY ANYTHING BUT STATS.” HCO PL 15 April 1982, Issue IIFinance Series 29, The Counting of Gross Income (OEC Management Series Vol. 2, p. 374)

LRH clearly lays out the 2 major stats for Scientology Orgs:

“Orgs have only 2 major final valuable products. One is well trained auditors. The other is satisfied pcs.  …Tech and Admin policy exist only to assist making these two products IN VOLUME.” LRH ED 131 INT Life Repair Block  8 December 1970 (OEC Vol. 4, p. 145)

“The product of an org is well taught students and thoroughly audited pcs.” HCO PL 17 June 1970RB KSW Series 5R, Technical Degrades (OEC Vol. 0, p. 14)

 “The individual statistic of any organization (except SH) is: HOW MANY TRAINED AUDITORS EXIST IN ITS AREA.

 The individual statistic of Saint Hill is: HOW MANY TRAINED AUDITORS ARE THERE IN THE WORLD.”  HCO PL 4 October 1967, Issue IAuditor and Org Individual Stats (OEC Vol. 4, p. 118)

The training of auditors is, therefore, the single most important activity in scientology, and its statistic is the single strongest indicator of the success or of Scientology management. But you don’t give any stats on these!

LRH also spells out, in numerous policies and bulletins, why auditor training is the senior product of all orgs and a must for all Scientologists:

“When you, as an auditor, accomplish your mission with a single preclear, you increase your confidence and your general ability, you increase your capability and what you can do for the universe at large and you win.” The Auditor, 1968 You As An Auditor (Tech Vol. VIII, p. 169)

“Getting to be an excellent auditor is a must if one merely wishes to live. But one dynamic isn’t enough. It takes all the dynamics to make a freedom. Therefore, to be Clear is not enough. To be a cleared auditor and to handle and audit people is a must if we wish to be totally free.” Ability Mag., Issue #72 Late April, 1958 (Tech Vol. IV, p. 329)

“As an auditor you can do something about life, you can confront it and have a much wider, broader view of life and people than any person, regardless of their state of case, who is not an auditor.” The Auditor, 1968 You As An Auditor (Tech Vol. VIII, p. 169)

“It is surely, surely true that nobody will make OT without training.” HCO P/L 17 March 1965 Issue I Clearing and Training (OEC Vol. 4, p. 614)

The system you replace it with is made up of unquantifiable generalities (“broad-scale impact out there”,”every ethnic, religious, and national concern on Earth”), and therefore cannot be managed by an actual statistic.

3.You have squelched the self determinism of Scientologists in violation of LRH’s policy

Since the earliest days of Dianetics and Scientology, LRH has emphasized integrity and self‐determinism as qualities central to a being. After LRH’s departure in the mid 1980s, however, more and more actions once considered a matter of personal choice be came the object of orders and threats.

Following your inspection of the Solo NOTs line at Flag in 2005, and again in 2006, a series of FSO EDs were published . Each added a new item to the growing list of “mandatories”, especially for Solo NOTs auditors:

Mandatory event attendance:

“Flag Scientologists are counted upon to attend all International Scientology events—no exceptions.”  FSO ED 8763 17 April 2007

Mandatory FSMing:

“Get 2 people onto Solo NOTs.  When at Flag for your six‐month check, you will be asked about this by your MAA and what we are looking for is compliance.”  FSO ED 8782 24 May 2007

Mandatory IAS Patron status:

“That’s why… you must become a PATRON OF THE INTERNATIONAL ASSOCIATION OF SCIENTOLOGISTS. This is the minimum expected status.”  FSO ED 8432 18 January 2006

These are in addition to previous orders for mandatory OT Committee membership and mandatory Ideal Org participation.

The actual ethical requirements for Clears and OTs are covered in such policies as An Open Letter to All Clears and OT Courses. Neither these nor any other LRH reference tell the pre‐OT how he must contribute in order to be eligible for OT Levels. By issuing these and other “mandatories” you actually invalidated those of us who willingly were contributing. Furthermore, you  made it a crime for OTs not to attend the International events.

LRH states:

“… if a person is doing his job…ethics is considered to be in and the person is protected by  Ethics.” HCO PL 1 September 1965, Issue VII Ethics Protection (OEC Vol. 0, p. 502)

“Orders only occur where responsibility has failed.” HCO PL 23 January 1968 Orders and Responsibility (OEC Vol. 0, p. 139)

4. You have burdened OTs with excessive and unwarranted eligibilities and sec checks in violation of LRH policy

You invented the six ‐month refreshers for Solo NOTs auditors inwhich everyone gets sec‐checked. This is a blanket C/S for all the people on Solo NOTs and violates the following LRH policy:


“Therefore, to handle any uncertainty anyone might have on the subject, what CAN and what CANNOT be delivered at any point within the No-Interference Zone and its two flanking areas has now been laid out very specifically here.This is vital data that orgs of all levels and missions must have and duplicate well, as it is up to every unit deliver the tech to ensure that the No-Interference Area is correctly enforced. HCOB 23.Dec.1971RA ( will send to you on request)

But what about a case who is out-ethics and not making progress due to continuous overts and withholds or, even worse, undisclosed overts or crimes against Scientology? Such a case won’t make any progress until these are gotten off. A person who is NCG, nattery, critical or otherwise exhibiting O/Ws or out ethics must be handled so that he can make case gains.


A pre-OT who is running well and making case gain should not be interrupted” HCOB 8 March 1982

Confessionals and The Non Interference Zone.When pre-OTs that are running well and making case gain on Solo NOTs get interrupted and pulled in to FLAG for a “refresher,” at a great cost I may add, the purpose of HCO Sec Checks and the principle of inspection before the fact are also violated:

“The statement ‘I am not auditing you’ only occurs when a Confessional is done for justice reasons…  (By ‘justice reasons’ is meant when a person is refusing to come clean on a Comm Ev, B of I, etc., or as part of a specific HCO investigation when the person is withholding data or evidence from such HCO personnel).” HCOB 30 November 78R Confessional Procedure (Tech Vol. XI, p. 359)

“The basic flaw in organization is INSPECTION BEFORE THE FACT. That means inspection before anything bad has happened.

Violations are so harmful that they destroy every great civilization —the Roman, the British, the lot. For every flow is slowed or stopped….Passports, customs, safety regulations, general government interference before anything bad has occurred, add up to a SUPPRESSIVE SOCIETY and therefore, soon enough, a dead one.Penalty after the fact has occurred disciplines the criminals and does not pull down the majority to criminal level.” HCO PL 6 February 1968 Organization The Flaw (OEC Vol. 0, p. 666.)

5. You have degraded Study Tech in violation of LRH policy.

There is extensive data on the subject of study and we all understand the importance of applying it properly and leaving no misunderstood words in our  studies. LRH states:

“To clear a word, one looks it up in a good dictionary.” HCOB 23 March 1978RB Word Clearing Series 59 Clearing Words (Tech Vol. XI, p. 95)

“Any word you come across which fits one or more of the above definitions of a misunderstood word or symbol must be cleared up, using a good-sized dictionary or more than one dictionary or textbook or encyclopedia.” HCOB 17 July 1979RB, Issue I Word Clearing Series 64RB—The Misunderstood Word Defined (Subject Vol. 2, p. 315)

“A Supervisor who…lets students study without dictionaries and demo kits…and does not fully apply study tech and use Word Clearing is of course suppressive and should be declared, as he is actively blocking Scientologists from having and benefiting from Scientology.” HCO PL 30 October 1978R Courses, Their Ideal Scene (OEC Vol. IV, p. 424)

You however, know better, of course:

“These glossaries are so good, you don’t even need a dictionary.”

On the release of the Congresses at the LRH Birthday celebration,March13, 2005; same claim repeated at the Basics release, June 20.

You have arbitrarily added prerequisite courses to Auditor training lengthening the time it takes to produce auditors in violation of LRH policy.

When you announced the release of the new Professional TRs Course you also made it a prerequisite for all Academy training. This is just the first in a growing list of prerequisites to auditor training. Others to follow include the new Upper Indocs Course (1991), the new Pro Metering Course (1996), and the Basics (2007).

The effects of an increasingly elongated runway to auditor training are well covered by LRH:

“We’ve had the datum for some time that a student too long on the runway is going to lose the spark and zeal he started out with.” “New, shorter Level 0-IV checksheets have just been issued. Each checksheet has been stripped down to the key materials the student needs in order to audit that level. Starrates and twin checkouts are not given on these courses.

“The emphasis is on the basics, with tough drilling of the student on the skills of the level he’s studying—and then getting him in the chair!”

LRH ED 299 INT 28 September 1978 The End of Endless Training (OEC Vol. 4, p. 419)

6.You invented the “Golden Age of Tech” in violation of LRH policy.

In 1996, with training statistics already faltering worldwide, you released your first major solution to the problem—the Golden Age of Tech. It was here that you announced your now-famous Why:

“The blind have been leading the blind.”

This Why denigrates earlier training, even though the tens of thousands of staff and public who trained during this time period did so on LRH-written (or LRH-approved) checksheets— often with LRH directly on the line.

To this day, you continue to characterize auditors trained prior to 1996 as blind, lost, and deficient in their understanding of Scientology, including the ones trained by LRH. LRH, however, felt otherwise:

“Excellent auditor training is now in the reach of every Academy.”  HCO PL 26 May 1961 Issue II KSW Series 2, Quality Counts (OEC Vol. 0, p. 16)

“With what we know now, there is no student we enroll who cannot be properly trained.” HCOPL 7 February 1965 Keeping Scientology Working (OEC Vol. 0, p. 7)

“It takes me about 3 or 4 weeks to get an auditor through his course and doing a good flubless job.”  HCOB 16 August 1972 C/S Series 84, Flubless C/Sing (Tech Vol. X, p. 198)

 “The extremely high caliber of auditor we are turning out is causing gasps of amazement whenever these fine graduates return into an area.”  HCOB 8 March 1962 The Bad “Auditor” (Tech Vol. VI, p. 452)

“…The vast majority of auditors have a high professional conscience and are willing to study, drill and do everything possible to perfect their tech.”  HCOB 22 January 1977 KSW Series 21, In-Tech, The Only Way to Achieve It (Tech Vol. XI, p. 13)

“Auditors do by and large a pretty fine job.”   HCOB 22 July 1963 Issue III Org Technical HGC Processes and Training (Tech Vol. VII, p. 236)

“We are and always have been in the business of training auditors. We can now do so more swiftly and efficiently than ever.” LRH ED 299 INT, 28 September 1978 The End of Endless Training (OEC Vol 4, pg 419)

Therefore it is my conclusion, that you, David Miscavige, are a full‐blown suppressive, SP, LRH says“a real monster,” and that you are the one responsible for the decline of the Church and the general unhappiness that exists among the staff and public. It’s easily explainable: you are an SP, the staff and public are PTS to you.

So what is the purpose of this letter?

Firstly to tell you that I am hereby resigning from you and the Church, means that I no longer support you, because you have managed to hijack it and have turned it into a squirrel group. Handling from within is not possible, as you have really made the entire area very PTS.

I am not, however resigning from Scientology. I am a firm believer of the philosophy and in fact I am applying it here,now. I will forever be a staunch defender of Scientology and will do my best to keep KSW in.  I am joining the group of Independent Scientologists, which is in fact thriving and truly expanding, and where delivery of LRH Standard Tech, is a reality. So, like many others before me, I go.

If a ruler rules, well assist him

If he rules with violence

Do not assist him

And let that be

His penalty.  

Hymn of Asia by L.Ron Hubbard   ARC  Günther Völler

Of course there is no chance that David Miscavige ever read this letter, or would even care if he had.  But it is nonetheless instructive as to what is going on in Scientology.  People have quit from day one; there is nothing new in this; the meat grinder of Scientology has always chewed up and spit out people.  But now the numbers are indeed alarming; at least to those still trapped inside.  Grim fear stalks the walls of Scientology.  Who will be next to quit or be declared a suppressive person?

Scientology continues to buy expensive new building termed “Ideal Orgs.”  Are these really “Ideal” or are they just “Idle”?



Published in: on April 19, 2014 at 5:25 pm  Leave a Comment  

Bob & Sharon Graham, Ex-Scientologist Story #441


The sinister death ship of Scientology.

The sinister death ship of Scientology.


Bob and Sharon Graham were veteran Scientologists who had quite a tale to tell when they finally got out.  Sad to say that I have studied Scientology so long that I can actually follow this word salad of in-group slang.  For the sake of brevity I am going to show only two instances of just how Scientology works, the first is on the Scientology slave ship, Freewinds, and secondly, the dangerous farce that plays out when auditing is substituted for real medical care.


On my route to “Total Freedom” there were also expensive side trips like the one which my wife and I were reged to go to the ship in 2004. The reges painted the picture of a Freewinds cruise as a wonderful 2 week vacation where one could relax, tour the Caribbean, take Freewinds specific courses and receive auditing in an atmosphere of total safety and comfort. We were suckers for this pitch because the previous year we had taken a Royal Caribbean cruise and loved it. Well, let’s just say that those who sold us on this Freewinds cruise didn’t know what they were talking about or they were intentionally lying their asses off because this cruise was anything but relaxing and/or fun. After shelling out the money for the “cruise” we arrived at the ship to discover that this was only the beginning of a much larger and more expensive reg cycle. Upon boarding the ship, all of our Identification and passports were taken and locked up for “safe keeping.” At first I objected having our identification removed because it made no sense but finally we acquiesced and handed it over, once informed it was LRH “policy.” I believe that removing one’s identification is actually done so there is no escape, even when the ship is in port. Without an ID and passport we were effectively prisoners and we weren’t going anywhere without permission. We were trapped on that damned ship with no way off!

Once we were far out to sea, I was given the R factor that I had been CSd to do a more advanced course than the one I previously purchased which was thousands of dollars extra. Then, once the reges found out I had reserves, I was fair game and every other day was body routed to reges to buy auditing hours, more courses, food, berthing upgrades, IAS donations, etc. –  etc. – etc. I felt there was no choice but do as we were told and try to hold off the IAS bastards from taking all of our money plus any available credit on credit cards. We were also told that our courses would take 5 days full time, but we were there for 5 weeks at their mercy, doing courses from 9 am to 10 pm, 7 days a week. The alternative was to be sent to ethics and/or sec checked until “God knows when.” Besides, it was made perfectly clear that we would NOT be leaving the ship until we had successfully completed our “programs.” On Friday nights, just when we thought we could relax and enjoy a few hours to ourselves, staff would come to our cabin and beat on the doors until we answered. Then, we were marched off to the auditorium to partake of Friday night completions, announcements and Scientology PR while all the exits were guarded by staff so no one could leave.

But, I have to give credit where credit is due. The food on the ship was fantastic. They have some excellent chefs on staff but sometimes I wondered if the crew was eating rice and beans because some of them looked quite pallid and gaunt, along with their over the top, militaristic attitude. In hind sight, maybe they were just hungry! This cruise was the polar opposite of the one we took a year earlier on the Royal Caribbean! There was one time, where I found myself on a short break from course so off I went to the workout room for some exercise, but within 10 minutes, a staff member came in and demanded to know why I wasn’t on course or in session. I explained that I was on a break and getting some badly needed exercise that I hoped would help me sleep at night. She then, proceeded to berate me for being out ethics and told me that I should be contributing to the motion of “clearing the planet,” not being the effect of my body and wasting time exercising. Now, I understood why the exercise room, filed with workout machines, was always empty! In hindsight, I doubt if this were a chance meeting since virtually nothing is left to chance on that ship. My best guess is that there was a reality adjustment intended for me but whatever it was, it missed the mark and only made me think these people on this ship are nuts!

The Freewinds cruise turned into a stressful, month-long ordeal, but it gave us some insight into what it must be like for Sea Org members. I cannot fathom living where every moment of one’s life is planned, structured and lived for the purpose of “clearing the planet.” They all have to know, deep  down, it’s nonsense. I wonder how many of those who join the Sea Org, originally sign up because of some personal need for absolute, structure in their lives, then get trapped with no way out. I simply don’t know or understand why someone would desire that life style. But on the positive side, for me, the Freewinds experience started the process of questioning the fact that if all these lies need to be told to get people to do services, then maybe… there was something awfully wrong with the whole damn thing.

. . . . . .

Previous to all this, In 1984 I married a non Scientologist who was open to learn about the subject. Sharon struggled with Scientology right from the beginning, but continued doing courses and receiving auditing on and off for years. Then, in 1991, after major surgery, she developed health issues that mimicked postpartum symptoms with severe body pains. To make a very long story short, she had countless hours of auditing and repairs, trying to handle her “PTS situation” to no avail.  She received auditing at AOLA, Celebrity Center, Santa Barbara, Ventura and she even went half way across the country to a mission in Louisiana, each one promising they had the “why” on what was wrong. We were desperate to find out why she was not doing well, so each time we would drink the cool aid and buy services at these Orgs and Missions hoping that they could deliver the “tech” correctly in hopes she would recover and be well again. In retrospect, it seems the staff at these orgs was totally focused on “getting the money” and didn’t really believe there was “standard tech.” I say that because each church would take our money and tell us, “Only, they had the 100% correct tech to handle her condition.” But, In fact, each time she would just get worse. There is a whole other story here that I won’t go into at this time, but after she left Scientology a friend recommended she go to a doctor that specialized in bio identical hormones. After a few weeks of balancing her hormones, Sharon magically became a “well and happy human being” once again. Recently, she told me that before we made the decision to leave Scientology…and all their “cures,” she thought she was going to die. She felt for her own survival, she had to get away from it and find a doctor that knew how to diagnose her condition. She was 100% right and the “tech” almost did her in. Worse yet, every time the “tech” didn’t work, various terminals within Scientology would tell me, that she was “no case gain” and/or PTS, at best. I am sorry to say that Sharon did not get the support from me that she deserved, but that is all behind us now that we are out of the craziness of it all.

To read the rest of this go to Mike Rinder’s blog here: http://www.mikerindersblog.org/bob-sharon-graham/

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Published in: on April 16, 2014 at 1:03 pm  Leave a Comment  

Bryan Ubaghs, “the emphasis is on money,” Ex-Scientologist Story #440

money cult

Bryan put his thoughts directly on-target without embelishment.  All that is left in Scientology is the desire to control and to consume.  This story comes from, Ethics Orders, Exposing Suppression in Seattle, http://www.ethicsorders.org/bryan.html

My story is a simple one. I entered Scientology in 1989, at the age of 21. It didn’t take much indoctrination to quickly decide that LRH’s tech was indeed what I had been looking for.
By age 41 I had been a Scientologist for twenty years. I had defended LRH and the tech many times by then. I had helped on numerous artistic projects, painting murals, playing drums with Bill Bertinot and The Fabulous Spontanes during ASHO events, creating artwork for Mark Arnold’s fiction writings, and too many other actions, along with commendations, to mention here.

I even tried my hand being on staff several times, although briefly.

If I had a dollar for every person I’ve body-routed, every piece of promo I’ve stuffed or every project I’ve helped on over the years, I’d be rich.

My point is that I fully support LRH’s goals toward a better, safer, saner earth.  And that is exactly why I have officially left the Church of Scientology as it exists under its current leadership.

Today the emphasis is on money. It is also on force. Force to join staff. Force to think like the group. Force to figure out how to pay what will easily amount to half a million dollars to attain the highest OT levels, keep the IAS coffers filled, and purchase brick and mortar Ideal Orgs (which absolutely have not been earned if we are honest about confronting the actual production stat trends over the long term).

On the subject of Ideal Orgs, I personally feel that they are simply a camouflaged hole. A very unusual, utterly off-policy “solution” to hide the fact that the course rooms are empty. That zero Scientology celebrities promote being in the church any longer in the public eye. That dozens of OT7’s and 8’s have not only left the church recently, but have gone online to publish their names, photos, contact information and personal horror stories regarding the above items I’ve mentioned.

The IAS has collected hundreds of millions of dollars over the past couple of decades, yet there are more big pharma ads for drugs today than ever before, by a long shot.

But the thing I simply cannot ignore is that far too many long-time, highly-trained Scientologists are not only abandoning their church worldwide, they are unanimously calling for the removal of one David Miscavige.

The glaring outpoint here is that you are not allowed to look at anything critical of Scientology or COB. You are not allowed to search the internet on these matters. You are not allowed to take full Knowledge, Responsibility and thus Control of the situation. You are not allowed to evaluate all of the data for your own, personal self.

Instead, others are deciding what is and isn’t “acceptable” information and then forcing this massive blind spot upon you, with threat of heavy “ethics” and even expulsion if you merely begin querrying the outpoints you may have noticed.

Well, this is NOT the work or intention of LRH. It is a trap.  Right now, differentiate between L. Ron Hubbard and current management. They are NOT the same thing, at all.

The glaring outpoint is: You would be totally free to look at and decide upon whatever you please as a free citizen of America and other nations if current Scientology management had nothing to hide.

I’ve done the research. I’ve dared to look. And current Scientology management has a LOT to hide. It is a fact that the FBI is now investigating COB specifically. I’ll let you do your own research on that one. It’s too incredible to believe. Literally.

If you are currently afraid of being your full self, speaking freely and obtaining any data you like, anywhere……then you are utterly and completely in a trap. And you know it. You absolutely do.

That said, there is a massive, world-wide movement right now to free the tech and make it affordable and available to the masses on this planet.  For most people of earth don’t even know where their dinner is coming from tonight, let alone how to come up with impossible funds to go up the Bridge.

Please do not buy into the gross lie that Tony DePhillips is the kingpin of evil in the NW. Please have some dignity and integrity regarding this matter. Tony and his wife, Marie-Jo, have done more to help LRH in terms of cash donations, effort and energy than most in this city. It is rediculous, shameful and massively unethical to declare these good people as “Suppressive Persons”. In fact, it’s downright embarrassing! Another camouflaged hole. And since the DePhillips’ departure, have student points shot upward? Have Clears and trained auditors been coming off the assembly line in sudden abundance? Have bodies in the shop advanced one bit? No. They certainly have not. And reports from across the world are that most Ideal Orgs are graveyards of inactivity, despite the flashy presentation and PR at events.

Fancy buildings will never hide the fact of massive unpopularity.

There are lots of friends on the outside. There is life on the outside. Many are going up LRH’s Bridge on the outside, minus the group-think, the heavy ethics, the forced introversion, the unbearable expense.

Best of luck. Your own integrity is very definitely far more important than anything your seniors in the church try to force you into agreeing with.

Truth be told, they are NOT your actual seniors, in any way, shape or form.

That is, unless you decide that they are.

Bryan Ubaghs

Published in: on April 16, 2014 at 12:14 pm  Comments (1)  

Lynne Hoverson & Bert Schippers, Ex-Scientologist Story #439


In the following story we find the familiar themes that dedicated Scientology watchers love to hate.  We see the fear of forced disconnection, the greed and the lust for control that are the absolute hallmarks of this cult.  Unless you are a completely mindless sheep who, when kicked says, “kick me again,” life in Scientology is not for the faint of heart.

The follwing was taken from the Blog of Marty Rathbun: http://markrathbun.wordpress.com/2011/02/23/lynne-hoverson-and-bert-schippers-speak-out-in-seattle/

Who we are: Lynne joined Scientology in 1973, training on NED and then the Levels, and reaching OT III in 1986, the year Bert started in Scientology. We married in 1989 and started our own company. Since then Lynne has reached OT V and three L’s and Bert made it to OT IV.

Over the years we put off getting new cars and beautiful houses, instead donating our way to the levels of Patron Meritorious in the IAS, Double Cornerstone in the Super Power Project and Triple Humanitarian for the Seattle Ideal Org. We helped CCHR Seattle survive for decades, we worked as Volunteer Ministers and in various other church activities. We were told repeatedly that we were wonderful “Opinion Leaders,” especially during efforts to get more donations from us, but we were shunned instantly when we refused to toe the line!

You may wonder why we donated so much, may even think we were crazy to do so. Did we do it for the “statuses?” Absolutely not! Our purpose in donating was to HELP. We really thought that we were helping others, helping those less fortunate, helping protect freedoms. It made all the personal sacrifices less significant. Imagine the betrayal we felt after coming to see the fraud and human rights abuses so rampant in virtually everything involving the church!

What did we experience that brought us to the point of making this open declaration?

  • Finding out that Lynne’s son in the Sea Org would no longer be allowed to have children, and having to turn a blind eye to the fact that this was a direct violation of what LRH said about balancing the dynamics.

  • Being made to feel guilty about doing anything in life but what was “approved” by the church.

  • Forced disconnection from Lynne’s non-Scientologist daughter in 2001 until we saw the truth in 2009.

  • Inquisition-like ethics cycles at Flag with two MAAs reading the meter, baiting and badgering and then threatening expulsion for being upset with an MAA.

  • Completely botched Clear cycle for Lynne’s daughter, costing tens of thousands of dollars and many years of upset, with literally zero actual care, handling, or results from CC, Flag and AOLA.

  • The death of a dedicated staff member resulting in her being denigrated for abandoning her post and “pulling it in.” This person was one of the most helpful, gracious people who’d ever been on staff and everyone in the area loved her. The attitude that when something bad happens to you, it means you are a bad person, was drilled in over many years.

  • Experiencing the difference in Auditing before and after the “golden age of tech” and the redefinition of an F/N; generally the difference between “win” and “no-win.” (Though as LRH says, some wins came through from the actual tech, despite the alterations.)

  • SP declares on Lynne’s son and his wife for blowing the SO despite going back and completing a proper routing out cycle, leading to years of disconnection and more tens of thousands in dollars of expense in “handling.”

  • Non-stop “Crush Regging” for Money.

  • Lynne being treated by the Flag Rep as if she were a piece of property to be commandeered and shipped to Flag like freight.

  • An OT Eligibility cycle from HELL for Bert.

  • The Basics insanity – financial irregularities with the way our accounts were handled in order to “sell” Basics (we ended up with 10 sets in our basement.)

  • After donating $300,000 to the Seattle Ideal Org, we were treated like enemies because we are friends with Tony & Marie-Joe Dephillips – resulting in being denied entrance to the Grand Opening. (See attachment of communication exchange that took place)

  • In spite of the promise, in writing, that anyone who donated $5000 or more to the Seattle Ideal Org would have their names on a memorial plaque, our names were deliberately omitted! (See photo attachment.)

  • Having all our Scientologist employees quit, including Lynne’s son and his wife, and Scientologist customers stop doing business with our company, because we would not fire Lynne’s daughter for speaking out.

  • Being essentially “disconnected from” by Lynne’s son and his wife because we woke up.


Each of the above bulleted items has a long story full of church blunders and other wonders. Feel free to email us for details.

What finally woke us up? The SP Times article was too much to confront at first for Lynne. So she checked out what the church had to say instead. When Tommy Davis asserted that he had affidavits from 22 people that one person had beaten 50 people over a period of years, she immediately thought of the HCOPL “Knowledge Reports” where it says a group that allows such behavior is an out-ethics group. With a gasp she realized that Int Management was an out-ethics group!

Looking up more of Tommy Davis, she heard him lie about there being no such thing as disconnection – after all the disconnection we had gone through! That was like having a bomb dropped on her. Communicating all this to Bert, it turned out that he had already seen enough. After this we were willing to look at anything and evaluate it without the bias that had been inculcated in us over the years. Yes we saw plenty of falsehoods in the anti-church data, but we were finally exercising our right to look for ourselves and to determine for ourselves what was true. And too much of it was true, to be ignored any longer.

Why are we speaking up? Our purpose to help others is very much alive, in spite of these experiences. We still donate to charities that help orphans, the elderly and cats.

We want others in the local field to know that there is someone here to talk to. If anyone under the radar contacts us we will keep their info private until they wish to disclose it.

Now having had a review in the independent field, and an ethics program (NOT the MAA-punishment-to-protect-the-church-from-you-evil-beings type of action, but instead a true program that helps one regain certainty of self-worth,) Lynne wants to assure others that their eternity and their bridge progress are not in jeopardy if they leave the church.

We both feel that no one can force another to stand up and be counted because everybody has their own situation, just as we did. But we hope that our announcement will help inspire others to work through those situations so that they too can stand up.

Most Sea Org members and Staff members are incredible people, who also really want to help. We feel sorry for those people. They are sacrificing so much in their own lives in order to live up to the expectations of upper mis-management. There is so much that needs to be corrected, most of which we have experienced or observed for ourselves: controlled communication, enforced disconnection, forced abortions, unlawful imprisonment, human-trafficking, and demanding huge sums of money from parishioners under false pretexts. These and all other abuses perpetrated by the church must CEASE!

It is interesting that we’re now a family in a group of people with many different viewpoints on the tech and life, and we tolerate them all, just as we should have all along, instead of insisting that only one viewpoint was allowed. Lynne loved her training and wouldn’t trade the gains of going clear for the world. Bert, on the other hand, had some very discouraging experiences, and does not want to have anything further to do with organized religion. Among the large group of those who’ve left the church in the Seattle area, we know people with an even wider range of viewpoints than this, yet now we all get along.

Oh, and in case anyone from the church is reading this, WE WANT OUR MONEY BACK!


To read more about the situation in Seattle go here: 

Seattle Ethics Orders Project

Exposing Suppression in Seattle



Published in: on April 16, 2014 at 7:57 am  Leave a Comment  

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